I don't have cancer!!!

It’s official: I DON’T have cancer!!! My transplant doctor told me Friday afternoon that cancer is now off the table, and Nodsferatu is an abscess! Which is still problematic and needs to be dealt with, but is WAY better than cancer!!!
 
Right now they don’t want to go in and remove it surgically, because they’re afraid of popping it and spreading the infection. The current plan is to drain it and slam it with a long course of IV antibiotics. I assume that I may have a drain in place for some time after the procedure to make sure it empties completely, but that wasn’t actually discussed yet. The procedure also hasn’t been scheduled, but that’s to be expected since they only settled on this plan Friday afternoon. Hopefully I’ll hear from someone early in the week to schedule a date.
 
Right after talking to my transplant doctor I had an appointment with my infectious disease doctor, who helps my various teams figure out the best way to treat my complex, multi-resistant Pseudomonas monster. I talked to her about some of my concerns, such as the fact that we’ve treated my Pseudomonas abscesses with drainage, debridement, and antibiotics before, and they still came back. She agreed that this is a valid concern, and said she is going to explore bacteriophage treatment again in the hopes that it could provide a more permanent solution. She also agreed that it is likely that I have a leftover suture on the left side just like I did on the right side. While we won’t open me up just to look for a suture, if we do end up getting to the point of a surgical intervention, finding and removing that suture will definitely be a priority since it is likely the source of these recurrent infections. She also said that even after this is resolved, we will do maintenance imaging (probably CT scans) on a regular basis to monitor for potential problems and avoid getting caught by surprise again.
 
I also asked about something on the MRI report which seemed to indicate that the infection has created a tract through one of my ribs. During our brief phone call my transplant doctor said that the thoracic surgeon did not see any bone infection, which seemed to be at odds with the MRI report. My infectious disease doctor was also confused about this, and plans to follow up with the radiologist as well as the other doctors involved to confirm whether or not there is bone involvement. Bone infections are even harder to treat than abscesses, and require an even longer course of IV antibiotics. Right now the plan is 4 weeks of IV antibiotics, but if there is bone involvement that will be extended to 6 weeks. Either way I’m in for a long haul, but I already knew that.
 
One other minor issue is that this course of IV antibiotics was planned before we knew that Nodsferatu is an abscess, and was only meant to last 2 weeks to treat the infection that showed up during the biopsy. Due to this they gave me a midline instead of a PICC line. The problem with that is midlines are only meant for short term use, not the 4-6 weeks required for an abscess or bone infection. Right now the plan is to try to use it for as long as it lasts, but I might have to get it replaced with a PICC line later on.
 
It's only day 5 of this round of IV antibiotics, and Katherine and I are already utterly exhausted. Katherine is beyond wonderful and is helping me by running my morning dose so I can get some sleep after staying up past 3am with the late night dose. So I’m staying up late, she’s waking up early, and we’re both napping randomly throughout the day. We pretty much hate this antibiotic because of its grueling schedule, but the only other option is Tobramycin. When the choice is between severe tinnitus and exhaustion, we’ll take exhaustion every time. And at the end of the day we are SO relieved and grateful that I don’t have cancer that it ALMOST makes this process look easy!

Maybe not cancer??

This week brings yet another unexpected twist, but this time hopefully it’s a good one!
 
The thoracic surgeon looked through all my imaging going back YEARS, and discovered that Nodsferatu has actually been there since at least 2021! Back then it was WAY too small to notice, but once you know what to look for you can see a tiny bump on the scans. But the really exciting part is that he looked at the chest MRI taken when I had an abscess back in December, and he thought that Nodsferatu looked like a fluid collection and NOT a tumor! If that’s true, that would mean that Nodsferatu is likely just yet another Pseudomonas abscess, and NOT cancer! In which case instead of putting me through a rigorous surgery and opening my chest to remove it, he MIGHT be able to just drain it and treat the infection with IV antibiotics, which would be MUCH less invasive!
 
This was a very exciting development, but it definitely required more imaging before coming to any conclusions. He ordered a chest MRI, and remarkably I was able to get it done that very same day. And if I’m reading this MRI report correctly, Nodsferatu looks like an abscess!!!
 
Meanwhile my transplant team was already working on getting me setup with home infusion to treat the Pseudomonas infection that showed up in the biopsy. Yesterday I had a midline placed, and today I started IV antibiotics. Unfortunately the antibiotic of choice is Fetroja (aka cefiderocol), which requires 3 hour infusions 3 times a day. To make matters worse, each dose is split into 2 bags, so it has to be changed halfway through. It’s far from our first rodeo with this particular antibiotic, so Katherine and I already know we won’t be getting much sleep for the next few weeks. And abscess treatment usually isn’t a quick process, since there isn’t any blood flow inside an abscess and it takes a while for the antibiotic to penetrate it. We’re not exactly looking forward to getting back on the no-sleep train.
 
HOWEVER, I think I mentioned in a previous update that our bar has been lowered DRAMATICALLY since this whole nodule saga began. A month ago if you had told me that I have YET ANOTHER Pseudomonas abscess that needs to be treated, I probably would have lost my damn mind. But NOW, I will be THRILLED to be told that I only have an abscess and not freaking cancer! It’s amazing how quickly your perspective can change!
 
Even though it’s the much better option by far, Pseudomonas is still one stubborn bastard and is ABSOLUTELY my arch nemesis. So to recognize this, Katherine somehow managed to find the absolute best plushy in existence! Apparently the site that provided the cancer plushy also had another incredibly topical item in their shop. I was SO surprised and laughed SO HARD when she gave it to me! And now whenever Pseudomonas ticks me off, I can just punch it in the face!

Biopsy fail

Well, the biopsy… happened. And that’s pretty much all there is to say about that.
 
The biopsy samples came back showing… nothing. And according to the PET scan there is definitely Something, so we think they missed the target when collecting the samples. Which is incredibly unhelpful.
 
In a weird turn of events, I still don’t have answers, but I DO have the beginnings of a plan. I spoke to my transplant doctor yesterday, and she said instead of trying another biopsy, she’d rather just take the whole thing out and figure out what it is afterwards. I definitely prefer this option, because the biopsy ended up being more painful than I expected. The procedure itself was fine because I was high as a kite on Versed and fentanyl, which was the one enjoyable part of this whole experience. Once the anesthesia wore off, however, I was in quite a bit of pain. I was also anxious, because there is a significant risk for pneumothorax (aka a collapsed lung) after a lung biopsy, and I wasn’t sure how I was supposed to tell the difference between normal chest pain and pneumothorax chest pain. Fortunately I didn’t have any symptoms other than pain, and that has been getting better as the days go on, though some is still lingering. They also put the biopsy needle in through my back by my left shoulder blade, which happens to be almost the exact spot where I’ve been having pain that I’ve been going to PT for over the last couple months, so that was less than fun. If I’m probably going to need surgery anyway, I’d rather cut (ha) to the chase and just get it over with instead of throwing in additional painful procedures. I have a consult with the thoracic surgeon Monday morning, so hopefully they can get me in for surgery just as quickly as they got me an appointment!
 
The one thing that DID show up in the biopsy results was... Pseudomonas. I was simultaneously INFURIATED and relieved at the thought that this whole thing might just be a severe Pseudomonas infection. I believe my initial reaction was something along the lines of “PSEUDO-F@#%ING-MONAS!!!” That damned bacteria is DETERMINED to kill me one of these days! But I also realize that a Pseudomonas infection would be FAR better than cancer. Unfortunately, my transplant doctor thinks it only showed up because my lungs are colonized with Pseudomonas and that it’s not actually the cause of the nodule. We might still treat it with a round of IV antibiotics anyway though.
 
Speaking of The Nodule, Katherine and I decided that it needs a name. I’ve been thinking of it as an alien monster in my chest, which of course brings to mind the chestbursters from the Alien movies, but they don’t really have names and Xenomorph just didn’t feel right. I tried to think of other horror movie monsters, and with the help of the CF Discord server came up with Nodsferatu (a play on Nosferatu), aka The Nodsferatule, or Nods for short. Katherine also decided that I needed a new critter after my biopsy, but she couldn’t just get a regular bronchoscopy animal since this wasn’t a bronchoscopy. So she somehow managed to find a cancer plushy! And even better, you can flip it inside out to turn it into a healthy cell! It was so surprising and definitely made me laugh!
 
So once again I’m waiting. Hopefully not for long, and HOPEFULLY the next procedure will be the LAST one for this particular problem!

Small update

This is completely unrelated to the recent biopsy drama, but I figured I’d share a little bit of good news for a change!
 
Over a year ago I had an ear tube placed to drain some fluid and treat a stubborn infection. It was expected to fall out on its own as the eardrum healed over the next 6-12 months, but a year later it was still in place. The ENT tried to remove it in August but that REALLY hurt, so we decided to give it a few more months and hope for the best. The ENT also let me know that between diabetes and my anti-rejection meds impeding my healing, and the fact that the tube had been in for so long, it was possible that the hole in my eardrum might never close completely even after the tube came out.
 
I had my follow up appointment today, and braced myself for a very painful tube removal. But when she looked in my ear, there was the tube, already out of my eardrum and just sitting in my ear canal waiting to be easily and painlessly removed! And even better, it looks like the hole in my eardrum has fully healed!
 
The other good news is that ever since the ENT manipulated the tube back in August, I pretty much haven’t had any more of the dizzy spells that had been plaguing me over the previous year. So it seems the tube was likely the cause of those unpleasant symptoms, and hopefully now that it’s gone that will finally be the end of that.
 
I’ve had a lot of bad and scary and stressful medical news lately, so it was REALLY nice for something to go right for a change. Hopefully this will be the start of things moving in the right direction!