One week of freedom!

It’s only temporary, but for one glorious week I am FREE!
 
Last week, after 8 straight weeks of IV antibiotics, I finally reached my limit. I had noticed some pain and swelling under my armpit on my left side, which we assumed was a swollen lymph node due to the infection. At first the pain was mild, but then for a few days it became more significant and started interfering with my already limited and disrupted sleep. Between not sleeping decently for 8 weeks and then waking up in pain, I was DONE. I reached out to my transplant team and told them that I desperately needed a break before surgery, since I’m expected to do up to 6 more weeks of IV antibiotics afterwards. I’m usually a pretty diligent and compliant patient, but I let them know that a break was not negotiable, and either they told me how many days to take off, or I would start skipping doses so I could get some sleep. They convinced me to hang on for a few more days until we could get sputum culture results to make sure that the nasty, multi-resistant strain of pseudomonas in the abscess had not gotten into my lungs. By then the pain had subsided to a manageable level, so I was willing to wait just a little longer.
 
We got the results yesterday, and not only was there no multi-resistant nastiness, there was NO pseudomonas whatsoever! I know it will come back since my sinuses remain infected and will drip pseudomonas back into my lungs once I’m off antibiotics, but it was still a great result for now. And that means for the first time in 9 weeks I am FREE from the horrible infusion schedule! I still have my PICC line, but I don’t need to run any antibiotics through it for a full week. Which means I won’t be chained to an IV pole for 9 hours a day, and we can FINALLY get a full night’s sleep! Katherine and I are so excited!
 
I also had a regularly scheduled follow up appointment at transplant clinic yesterday, and my lung function was an amazing 101%! Even though this abscess situation has been pretty terrible, it’s nice to see that at least my lungs are still doing great! Overall we’re all just waiting for surgery now, as the abscess is the only pressing issue. They’re also going to do a bronchoscopy while I’m under just to make sure everything is ok in there after randomly coughing up a blood clot a few weeks ago. At this point a bronch is really the least of my worries, and since I’ll be unconscious anyway, what do I care?
 
On Tuesday I will resume IV antibiotics for a couple days to get me ready for surgery, which is scheduled for Thursday the 29^th. Though I’m very much not looking forward to a likely painful recovery process, I AM glad to finally get surgery over with. It has been a LONG ROAD. This all started with a wonky routine x-ray at the end of September, followed by an even more concerning CT scan mid-October, and then a month of thinking I had cancer and a failed biopsy before finally realizing it’s actually an abscess in November. Then I started IV antibiotics, which I have now been on for nine full weeks. I am TIRED, and I still have a long way to go, as I will need additional weeks of IV antibiotics after surgery. Both Katherine and I are EXHAUSTED!! But I’m starting to see the faintest glimmer of light at the end of this very long, dark tunnel, and am hopeful that sooner than later the current round of medical issues will finally be DONE. And I’m sure everything will be much easier to deal with once I get some sleep!

At last, a plan!

I haven’t written anything over the last couple weeks, because unfortunately there wasn’t anything to write about. The decision to move forward with surgery was made literally the last day before my surgeon went on vacation for 2 weeks. I pretty much spent the last 2 weeks twiddling my thumbs waiting for him to come back so we can finally DO SOMETHING. I already know from unfortunate experience that this is the ABSOLUTE WORST time of year to have any sort of medical issue, but this seems a bit excessive. I’m strongly considering just skipping December entirely going forward. This is NOT my time of year.
 
Of course, while waiting I’ve still been on IV antibiotics, because at the very least they’re preventing things from getting worse. But we’ve also been on pins and needles, because I have a habit of not waiting for outpatient appointments and ending up in the ER instead. We thought the time had come Friday night when I suddenly coughed up a blood clot. Pre-transplant I coughed up far greater amounts of blood on a fairly regular basis, and one little clot would have been nothing, but aside from when I’m recovering from bronchoscopies I haven’t coughed up blood a single time since transplant. I had no clue how significant one random clot was, and our stress level was not helped by the fact that for some reason it took over an hour and a half to get the after-hours transplant doctor on the phone. Thankfully, she said that as long as I didn’t cough up anything more significant, I did NOT have to go to the ER and we could just continue to monitor the situation. Whew!
 
Which brings us to yesterday, and my long-awaited consult with the thoracic surgeon.
 
Surgery is officially a go. It’s currently scheduled for the 29th, with a slim chance of possibly getting me onto the schedule next week. Finally getting this show on the road is definitely good news. The surgeon is also confident that during the procedure he will be able to find and remove the suture that we assume is in there harboring these infections, so that’s more good news.
 
The not good news is that the surgery sounds intense. He’s expecting a 3-4" incision, and they have to pull my ribs apart to get into my chest cavity. I will likely be hospitalized for at least 2-5 days afterwards and will have large chest tubes draining fluid from my chest just like I did after transplant. Once those are gone I will probably go home with a smaller device called a JP drain that will continue draining the fluids for the next few weeks. On the plus side, he does NOT think I’ll need a wound vac this time. Risks include potentially spilling the currently contained infection into my chest cavity, and possibly causing injury to my lung if the abscess is really stuck to it.
 
The even more upsetting news is that he expects me to be on IV antibiotics for 6 more weeks after surgery, on top of the weeks I've already done. I just finished 7 weeks and am moving into week number 8, and it might be 3 more weeks until I even get to the surgery. I am SO OVER these IV antibiotics!
 
And the potentially worst news is that if they find any infection in my bones, they may have to remove a small piece of my rib. The piece in question is right next to my scapula (aka shoulder blade), and apparently if you leave a gap there the scapula can kind of fall into it. Normally they put some sort of mesh in to prevent that from happening, but in my case they can't do that because I have a nasty infection in there, and infections love to attach themselves to things like that. We’re pretty sure a leftover transplant suture that didn’t dissolve is the source of my current infection, and the last thing we want to do is give it a new home. So if they remove bone I may have my scapula randomly falling into the gap for the rest of my life. Supposedly you can fix it easily by changing position, but it sounds like it hurts. So that's not great. Buuut they may not find any bone infection, in which case they can leave my ribs alone. Here's hoping!
 
So it’s still NOT cancer, and it’s NOT a double lung transplant, but it is A LOT to deal with on top of everything I’ve already been dealing with. Katherine and I are utterly exhausted, and I’m REALLY not looking forward to yet another painful surgery and lengthy recovery. But I’m also relieved to finally be moving forward towards a solution. And hopefully, someday, eventually I will FINALLY see the end of the current long round of medical drama!