The light at the end of the tunnel

I haven’t written because it kinda felt like every day was the same. The pain is improving, but I still have stitches and I’m still uncomfortable and I’ve still been on IV antibiotics. The one thing that changed is last week I got my drain out. It hurt but at least it was quick, and that’s one less annoying thing sticking out of my body.
 
But then! Today I saw my transplant doctor. He’s pleased with my recovery and said that the samples they took during surgery actually didn’t grow any pseudomonas, which is a good sign that hopefully the Amikacin will be able to fully eradicate the infection. And then he gave me the best news I’ve heard in a LONG time. He said that the Covid rate in my area is currently low enough that I can finally loosen up my lockdown and go back to regular post-transplant precautions! For the last 2 years my socializing has been very limited and almost exclusively outdoors. Sharing meals has been extremely rare as any unmasked socializing had to be outside at a social distance. But now! For the first time in 2 years, as long as everyone (excluding young children) is vaccinated, I can finally be unmasked indoors and share a meal together! With the caveats that I still can’t be around crowds, or anyone showing any symptoms of anything, or people who have recently been in a crowded place with a high risk of exposure to illness. And of course I’ll still wear a mask in public. But those are basically the restrictions I followed post-transplant anyway, since for me ANY infection has the potential to cause serious problems. Being able to finally step inside someone’s house unmasked is a HUGE improvement!
 
It’s kind of surreal, and I’m actually kind of anxious about it! I’ve worked so hard to stay safe and somehow managed not to catch Covid this whole time, so it’s very strange and a little scary to think about loosening up on Covid protections. At the same time, I’ve been pretty depressed lately, and I think a lot of it has to do with Covid. It feels like Covid sucked all the fun parts out of life and all I had left was endless medical complications. I wasn’t happy even before surgery, and having a painful procedure and lengthy recovery thrown on top was just too much. Finding out that I can start seeing friends again finally added a little light back into my life, and hopefully will help pull me out of the depressive funk I’ve been slogging through.
 
Today I finished my last dose of Amikacin. I’m keeping the PICC line until Monday to get my annual infusion of Reclast to treat osteopenia, and then hopefully after nearly 3 months I’ll finally get that out. Next Wednesday I’ll get my stiches out and will hopefully be more comfortable. And then the following day is Purim! Hopefully this will be the end of medical drama and the beginning of more fun holidays and celebrations with family and friends!!