2 year update

It’s been a LONG time since I wrote a health update. That’s partially been because, thank G-d, things have been going pretty smoothly! That doesn’t mean NO complications, just nothing major. Honestly, just maintaining a healthy baseline involves a bunch of medical stuff. I have to get bloodwork at least once a month, and sometimes more often if something is out of whack and needs to be monitored a little more closely. That something is usually either my Tacrolimus (anti-rejection med) levels being off and requiring a dosage adjustment, or my kidney levels being worse than usual. My kidneys have been struggling a bit, which is expected thanks to the Tacrolimus, but thankfully are still chugging along at a reasonable rate. We recently discovered that they still respond well to extra hydration, so if I drink A TON of water (which is really hard for me!) my levels are almost normal. Aside from bloodwork, I have a bunch of appointments that I need to have on a regular basis. Transplant clinic at least every 3 months, endocrinologist every 6 months, dermatologist at least annually, ENT at least annually. Then there are the minor procedures, such as getting my feeding tube changed every 6-12 months. I no longer require supplemental nutrition, but I DO rely on the feeding tube for additional hydration overnight to maintain my kidney function. Sometimes I’m on top of changing it and it’s just a routine appointment, and sometimes it gets slightly dramatic, such as a few months ago when I was overdue for a change and then accidentally yanked it half out of my stomach, resulting in it painfully sticking out of me overnight until I could get in for an emergency appointment the next day. I also have a Reclast infusion that I get once a year to try to offset the damage that long-term steroid use has done to my bones. And of course aside from all this, I take a ton of medication every day to stave off rejection and keep my body functioning. So even when things are medically calm, there’s still a lot going on!
 
I think the biggest complication that I’ve had was at a dermatologist visit last year. The risk for all cancers goes up significantly after transplant due to the anti-rejection meds, but the risk of skin cancer is PARTICULARLY high. At my last appointment they found that 3 small bumps on my face were pre-cancerous and needed to be removed. It wasn’t a big deal at all, the doctor froze them off during the appointment and I just had to deal with some unpleasant blistering afterwards, but even pre-cancerous was still a scary thing to hear. I have to be very careful about sun exposure and check my skin regularly for anything unusual, and of course keep up with regular dermatology appointments to keep an eye on things.
 
There’s another reason I fell out of writing health updates though, and that was thanks to Trikafta. Trikafta is the groundbreaking CF drug that came out shortly after my transplant. My doctors wanted me to take it to improve my miserable CF sinuses and reduce the risk of infections dripping down into my lungs. The first time I tried taking it about a year after transplant, I got REALLY depressed and fatigued, so we discontinued it. We decided to try again at a lower dose in July 2022. I seemed to do better at the lower dose, but when we tried to increase it I immediately had a bad reaction, so we dropped back down to the initial dose. I still ended up struggling with depression and extreme fatigue, but wanted to stick it out and see if the side effects faded with time. In January of 2023 we tried adding an anti-depressant to see if that would help with the side effects and allow me to stay on Trikafta. By June of 2023, however, it was clear that the depression and extreme fatigue were not going away. I decided it wasn’t worth being miserable and dysfunctional just to maybe improve my sinuses, so we discontinued the Trikafta and have no plans of trying it again. It took a WHILE for things to improve even once I stopped taking it, but thankfully I’m doing much better now. I still struggle with fatigue, but it’s back to the level I was dealing with before Trikafta, and my mood is MUCH better. It’s a shame that I waited so many years for a drug that targeted my genotype, only to be unable to tolerate it. At least it makes me feel a little better though that I didn’t end up missing out on anything by getting a transplant before it came out.
 
My only other “complication” is that after not catching any infections for over 4 years post-transplant, I managed to catch 2 colds this year, one in January and one in April. My symptoms were relatively mild, but with any infection there’s always the risk that it could trigger rejection. Thankfully I did NOT have any rejection after either illness – and in fact have not had any rejection since my transplant! Hopefully I can continue that streak, and also keep myself infection free for at least the rest of this year!
 
That’s pretty much what’s been going on the last couple years. Now that I’m finally caught up, I’ll try to be on top of writing health updates more regularly – but let’s hope I won’t have much to talk about!!

No news is (mostly) good news!

It’s been quite a while since I shared a health update. This time around, no news is mostly good news!
 
Things have actually been relatively calm in recent months. I had a bronch and a sweat test in July, but aside from those and bloodwork every few weeks I’ve actually managed to avoid any other procedures. I haven’t even had any doctor’s appointments! Katherine and I have been taking advantage of the calm to go on outings and little day trips. We went out to a free concert and fireworks for the 4^th of July, visited the beautiful Chinese Lantern Festival, drove to Edison for a cat expo, road a scenic railroad in Delaware, went to Wildwood to check out a tattoo convention, and spent an afternoon at the art museum. We’ve had a pretty busy summer, and still have more outings planned! Definitely a nice change from medical drama!!
 
There is one big thing going on though: Trikafta. I started taking it over a month ago, and it hasn’t gone entirely smoothly. When I first tried it a couple years ago I ended up stopping because it seemed to be making me fatigued and depressed. This time we tried increasing the dose slowly to give me time to adjust, and while I did ok with the first dosage, as soon as I moved up to the next level I started struggling with fatigue and depression again. Right now I’m back to the lowest dose and planning to stay here for a while to really give my body time to adjust before trying to go up again. I don’t want to waste the rest of the good weather and spend the Jewish holiday season being exhausted and depressed, so I won’t be changing the dose until the end of October at the earliest. I do think I’m still having some side effects, such as insomnia and fatigue, which is difficult but definitely much more manageable than what I experienced at the higher dose. It’s really frustrating that there’s this amazing medicine that could nearly “cure” my remaining CF symptoms, but I may not be able to benefit from it due to side effects. I have heard though that for some people the side effects fade after a month or 2, so I’m hoping that eventually I’ll be able to sloooowly work my way up to a full dose. Here’s hoping!
 
This month will be a little more medical, as I have appointments coming up with my transplant team and my endocrinologist. I also have a dexa scan scheduled to check my bone density, since my bones have been compromised by years of steroids. But aside from that I plan to keep getting out and about and enjoying myself as much as I can!

Free again!

Hooray for (relative) freedom!

A few weeks ago I got Evusheld, an antibody injection for people who either can’t take or are unlikely to respond to the Covid vaccine. We already know that I didn’t produce antibodies in response to my vaccines and boosters, so Evusheld is an important tool to help keep me safe from Covid. My doctor has seen really good results so far, both in that transplant patients who get Evusheld are less likely to catch Covid, and that those who do catch it have much less severe illness. Between finally getting Evusheld, and the local Covid numbers going down, he actually felt comfortable loosening some of my Covid restrictions! I can once again be unmasked indoors with a few people at a time as long as they are vaccinated and will warn me if they have any symptoms of illness. He does still want me to avoid indoor crowds entirely and to wear a mask if I’m in a crowded space outdoors, but that’s pretty manageable. Regardless of Covid I need to avoid people with any signs of illness, since I’m highly susceptible to infections and even a simple cold could be devastating, so that and avoiding crowds are just standard post-transplant precautions. It’s so nice to mostly be back to my regular levels of paranoia now that I finally have some antibodies in my system!

On a less exciting note, my lungs continue to be a petri dish. After a month of nebulized antibiotics the pseudomonas was thankfully gone, but it was replaced with staph. I’m still not having major symptoms so we aren’t jumping to treat it yet, but it’s frustrating to keep having one infection after another. We know it’s all coming from my sinuses, but my ENT didn’t think another surgery would be particularly helpful. So instead we’re going to try Trikafta! Trikafta is the ground-breaking CF treatment that came out shortly after my transplant. I actually tried it briefly a couple years ago, but stopped because I was possibly having side effects and it wasn’t clear whether it would even help my sinuses. But now there is more research showing that it DOES help the sinuses, so we’re going to try again and see if I can tolerate it, possibly on a partial dose.

Before starting though, I’m getting a sweat test. One of the weird things that happens when you have CF is that your sweat is extra salty, and a sweat test has been standard to diagnose CF for decades. So why do I need one now? Trikafta addresses CF on a cellular level, and even corrects the salt levels in the sweat. Since I might not be on a full dose, we need a way to check if the partial dose is working. If I get a baseline sweat test now, we can then compare my salt levels on Trikafta to see how much it changes. This won’t be necessary if I end up tolerating the full dose, but could be helpful if I need to take a modified dose. The funny thing is that I have to go to the children’s hospital to get it done, since it’s not typical for adults to get this kind of diagnostic testing. That should be interesting!

One other issue is that I’ve been having some on and off chest congestion over the last couple months and have been having trouble coughing it out. My doctor heard some stuff rattling around in my lungs during my last appointment, and thinks it might be time for another bronchoscopy to open up my airways. So that’s Monday’s adventure. Thankfully it’s been nearly 10 months since my last bronch, which is a record for me! Hopefully it’ll go smoothly and I’ll feel better afterwards.

That’s the latest medical shenanigans around here. Thankfully nothing too dramatic this time!

And the verdict is...

It’s official: Pseudomonas REALLY loves me.
 
A few weeks ago, we got the results back from the sample they took during my bronch. Unfortunately, even after all that treatment in August, they STILL found Pseudomonas in my lungs. It’s unclear whether we never fully eradicated it or if my sinuses just reinfected my lungs that quickly, but either way it was very upsetting. I literally screamed with frustration after hanging up the phone. Damn you Pseudomonas!!
 
The new plan is to put me back on a nebulized antibiotic, specifically Tobramycin. Tobramycin is the one that gave me tinnitus, but taking it via nebulizer is far less risky than IVs. I haven’t done Tobra nebs in years because over time my airways became increasingly reactive, and I started having significant asthmatic symptoms every time I took it. Hopefully my new lungs will tolerate it better, especially since my clinic’s protocol is to only give post-transplant patients a half dose. I’m also taking an albuterol nebulizer beforehand to help open my airways and counteract any negative reactions. The downside of this is that it’s been so long since I took albuterol that I’ve completely lost my tolerance for it. For years I did albuterol nebs at least twice a day, so they didn’t really affect me.  Yesterday I took my first albuterol neb in months, and boy did it mess with me. My heart was racing, my hands were shaking, and for hours afterwards I felt shaky and worn out and had a headache. I really hope my body gets reacclimated to albuterol soon!
 
I was pretty freaked out when I got the bronch results, but I’m feeling calmer after hearing from some other post-transplant CFers who have dealt with Pseudomonas without it impacting their lung function. My team also wasn’t alarmed and reassured me that this is not uncommon, and that I will likely just keep going on and off Tobra nebs as needed. I’m not excited about getting back into a twice a day neb routine after having a nice little break for the last year or so, but that’s definitely easier than IV antibiotics. I also feel a little spoiled complaining about a few nebs after spending most of my life doing multiple nebulizers 2-4 times a day on top of airway clearance. My current nebulizer routine is still SO much lighter than it was pre-transplant!
 
Unfortunately, I’ve still been struggling with fatigue and low mood. We decided a couple weeks ago to discontinue the Trikafta entirely, since it’s unclear how much benefit I’m getting and it could be worsening those symptoms. I do think my mood has improved a bit, though I’m not sure about the fatigue. We recently discussed the fact that my iron levels have been a bit low, which could be contributing to my fatigue. Unfortunately, oral iron supplements can slow down the gut, which is already a problem for me due to CF digestive issues and gastroparesis (aka delayed gastric emptying). Due to this, I’ll have to go in for iron infusions once a week for 3 weeks. During that time I’m also scheduled to get an infusion of Reclast to improve my bone density, which has been damaged by years of steroid use. Apparently infusions are the theme for December! I’m a little worried about how my terrible veins will handle all these IVs and infusions, since I no longer have a port and I doubt they’ll give me a PICC line for just 4 infusions. Hopefully it won’t be too bad, and HOPEFULLY treating the anemia will be the fix I need to get my energy back!
 
I’m super not excited about heading into cold and flu plus Covid-Part-2 season. I guess it won’t really make much difference since I’m already isolating and being super careful, but it’s never fun knowing there are even more germs floating around trying to kill me. It’s also even less fun hunkering down and trying not to die when it’s all cold and dark and depressing outside. I remember how exhausting cold and flu season was last year, and how much I was looking forward to spring, only to get slammed with Covid instead. This year is worse since I’ve already been on varying degrees of lockdown for a full year now. Hopefully all the promising news about the Covid vaccine will come to fruition, and maybe I’ll FINALLY get released sometime this coming spring or summer!
 
That’s the latest in my life of medical shenanigans. Hopefully I’ll have a more uplifting update sometime soon!

One foot in front of the other

I’m tired.

Since getting home from the hospital at the end of August, I’ve been very fatigued and kind of depressed. I wasn’t exactly full of joy and energy before then, but things seemed to get markedly worse. After about a month I realized that this coincided with starting Trikafta, so I reached out to my doctor. Turns out these can be side effects of Trikafta, so we halved my dose. I felt less depressed the following week, but have still been very fatigued. My doctor said this could be due to the CMV flare up over the summer, and that unfortunately it can take a while to recover.

Part of the problem is that it’s very difficult to tease out which issues are medical symptoms, and which are related to mental health. Transplant is a VERY intense experience, and depression and anxiety after transplant are not uncommon. I still have lingering trauma from what I went through before and during the transplant process. In addition, life after transplant is fragile and uncertain, a reality that is very stressful to live with. And as if that isn’t difficult enough, I also end up feeling guilty about being depressed and anxious! I feel like I should be perpetually full of joy and gratitude for this precious gift of life and relative health, and that I have a responsibility to live my best life for my donor as well as for myself. So I end up not only feeling depressed and anxious, but feeling bad about feeling depressed and anxious. It’s super fun.

Now take all that, and throw a life threatening and confining global pandemic on top of it. Just what I needed: another threat to add to my already long list of fears! How am I supposed to distract myself from those fears and live my best life when I can barely leave the house? I’m dealing with the same stresses and fears and struggles as everyone else, ON TOP of my already elevated baseline of stresses and fears and struggles. This makes it REALLY hard to figure out the cause of various symptoms. Is the fatigue a symptom of depression, or a medical issue? Have I been depressed because of medication, or because of the world at large? What is going on???

Despite all this, overall I’ve still been doing really well medically. I had a follow up appointment on Friday and once again my lung function was an amazing 92%! My chest CT scan looked good and showed that the pneumonia from August has cleared up completely. Tomorrow I have a bronchoscopy, so we’ll see how my airways look and get a sputum sample to check for infections. Here’s hoping Pseudomonas finally got the message and moved out!

I’m just trying to put one foot in front of the other and keep getting through this 2020 life. Hopefully it’ll get easier soon!

Counting down!

The countdown is on!

Tomorrow I will finally finish a 2 week course of Cefiderocol and hopefully be rid of both pneumonia and Pseudomonas. Nausea and GI issues are now mostly under control, aside from IV antibiotic induced side effects which should hopefully clear up once I’m IV free. I also started Trikafta will no ill effects thus far. We’re discussing possibly starting a nebulized antibiotic so I can get onto a home treatment routine that will hopefully prevent Pseudomonas from causing more problems. We’ve just about gotten everything sorted out and squared away at this point, which means I can finally. Go. HOME!

Today I got to see more of HUP’s Covid discharge ritual, as a Covid patient was actually discharged from the floor I’m on. In addition to hearing Here Comes the Sun play over the intercom, I saw the staff line the hallway and clap and cheer as the patient left the unit. I feel like I’ve now had the full hospitalized-during-a-pandemic experience!

We had all kinds of hallway drama and excitement today. An angry and possibly confused patient roaming the halls at 1am yelling at someone on the phone, an accidental code call that sent everyone scrambling, said code call malfunctioning and ringing for an hour before they could turn it off, another patient who refused to stay in bed and triggered the bed alarm every five minutes… The last 20 hours have been the kind of day that nurses HATE. I, of course, am loving it. My room is right next to the nurse’s station, so I have a front row seat to watch all the chaos. I do wonder how my old neighbor is doing though, and if she’s still gifting Founders 14 with her taste in music – whether they want it or not!

The plan for tomorrow is to finish my last dose of Cefiderocol, pull my PICC line, and send me HOME! I’m honestly a little nervous to be IV free since the last time we pulled my PICC line I ended up in the ER less than 2 weeks later, but I’m hopeful that this time stubborn Pseudomonas has finally been evicted. I’ll find out for sure in a few weeks when we do follow up testing. But whatever the outcome, I’m VERY much looking forward to being home!!

A mixed bag

It’s been a bit of a mixed bag around here.

The good news is, we found an effective antibiotic that doesn’t have serious side effects. The bad news is, it can only be given in the hospital. Apparently this is a really new medication, and home infusion companies don’t want to touch it. It’s also very expensive, so even if we could find a home infusion company, insurance won’t pay for it. In the hospital, however, insurance pays a standard daily rate which covers all treatment and medications. This almost certainly costs more than just paying for the medication at home, but no one ever accused insurance companies of being sensible. I started the new medication on Friday, so I’ll be inpatient until August 27^th for a full 2 week course. I’m actually extremely lucky that I didn’t need IV antibiotics before now, since the only other antibiotics my Pseudomonas is susceptible to are either ototoxic (toxic to the ears) or nephrotoxic (toxic to the kidneys). I already have antibiotic-induced tinnitus and mild hearing loss, and my anti-rejection meds strain my kidneys, so I’m fortunate that this other antibiotic came out!

In other news, as so often happens, my stomach decided to jump on the bandwagon and start making problems as well. Despite the fact that weeks of IV antibiotics basically gave me an unwanted colon cleanse thanks to unpleasant side effects, my stubborn CF bowels have somehow managed to start working on a blockage anyway. Fortunately we caught it before things got too bad, but I’ve been very nauseous for the last couple days. We’ve been slamming me with laxatives since last night, so that’s always a joy, but I think I’m doing better now. Here’s hoping that tomorrow I won’t wake up nauseous for a change!

In other news, as of yesterday I started taking… Trikafta! That’s the fancy triple combo CF drug that came out last year, which has been life altering for many CF patients. That’s also the drug I waited years for, since the previous genetic modulators didn’t work on my CF mutations, only for my lungs to crash and burn JUST before it came out. Trikafta won’t work on my lungs anymore since they have different, CF-free genetic material, but CF is a full body experience and it can still help with other problems. We’re hoping it will improve my sinuses and cut down on sinus infections, thus reducing the risk of lung infections. It might also help my bowels, which would certainly be nice. The downside is it can have unpleasant side effects, sometimes to the point that people can’t continue taking it. Right now I’m on a half dose to see how it goes. It also interacts with my anti-rejection meds, which is why we haven’t tried it before now. So we’ll need to monitor my bloodwork very closely and adjust dosages as necessary to keep everything safe.

Starting Trikafta now definitely has a bit of a “too little too late” kind of feeling. If it had come out a year earlier, back in 2018 when my lung function was still at 60%, it might have done amazing things and my life now could be completely different. I’ve mostly resigned myself to the fact that for some reason my life was meant to follow a different path, but sometimes it still stings. But hopefully it can help me keep these lungs going for a long time, and maybe reduce some of my day to day CF symptoms in the bargain.

On the plus side, I’m very glad that they managed to transfer me to my usual floor, Silver 11. They know CF and lung transplant inside out around here, and my med schedule has gone much more smoothly. And they know ME, which is really nice! Disappointing as it is to be inpatient, it’s been nice to see everyone and tell them how GOOD I’ve been doing overall since my transplant. The last time I was hospitalized on this floor was just before transplant, when I could barely get out of bed and things were pretty dire. Meanwhile, yesterday I walked 17 laps around the nurse’s station at a pretty good pace! Everyone has been very happy to see how healthy I look now!

So that’s the story around here. I’m in it for the long haul, but hopefully Cefiderocol will finally kick this super stubborn Pseudomonas to the curb!